Death and Rebirth of Ego

by Daniel Mahoney

A poem that reads:

Death and Rebirth of Ego

Adrift in grief: misplaced trust
Scraps thrown on the compost pile
Glial feeding before I am gone
Warming with each broken bond
Disintegrated, dissolved, devoured,
Emancipated by unseen heroes
Like a capillary bed with sanguine pulse
Beating and mixing with other I’s—
Now unrecognizable
The more death I contains, the more life it sustains
Rebuilt on ruins of reinforced necrodiversity
Silver threads glinting in the dark
Under the surface I reassembles
Radicalizing in rich soil
Mycelia and Milky Way share fractal forms
Scaffolded corpses of astral selves
Climb out of humus into hubris
Silk fibers lace the void, stretch to touch first light
To shine, to bear, to breathe, to birth
Against the pull of entropy

Artist Statement

Changing our self-narratives can be traumatic or reparative, which activates the glial network responsible for neuroplasticity. I envision this alchemical process as a type of composting: building new selves out of soil made from scraps of old selves, hidden in the dark.

Artist Bio

Daniel Mahoney is a pediatric palliative care physician in Houston, TX.